I just read it and it affected me. I feel really bad that you did not remain with that first love. Evidently you found another and had a large family but you still mourn the loss of that other person. I met my husband when I was 13 and he 14. We stayed together. I would have always mourned him if it had not worked out. We have been married 58 years. I have been so blessed.
Consuelo. Congratulations !! Being with the love of your life for 58 years is such a rarity for our generation. Bravo!!! Wishing you and your's many more years of continued bliss and love.
Thank you for taking time to read my story and for your kindness and understanding of my need to publicly post my efforts to forgive myself. It really does my heart good to hear how you and yours have been so blessed to have each other.
You are a writer, writing from the heart and soul of your experience. Thank you for sharing. Currently, I am in the Yakima area, so it was interesting to read of your Vista experience there. I appreciate your perspective and encourage you to write more. I honor you for your service and life experience.
Proof positive that yes, indeed, I am split persona 'J.L.' and 'U.R.'
It cracks me up how I can be one person on my phone and another on this chrome book. I know, I know, there are cyber ways to remedy such things but I can't bother with it - I have better things to do. Like, taking time to go to your stack and finding such good stories and poems there. It has meant more to me today than you know. Your words, your poems helped pull me out of the daily regimen I've grown weary of ... waiting for the other shoe to drop and trying to figure out when it will and how. Hint: why I bother ( I don't like being blindsided ).
I would welcome any and all dialog with you anytime. Thank again for your kindness.
Oh I almost forgot - I read a reference you made to 'Americorp' - that organization grew out of VISTA, which was birthed in the War on Poverty programs of the 60's.
This makes me very happy to hear that my words uplifted another sojourner. I always hope they can inspire and reach the right folks at the right time, which I can't control. So reading this comment has given me too, some confirmation that these words are indeed important and we can touch others with them. And yes, I was involved in Americorps: NCCC which was an awesome program in 1995-96 that I was stationed at the San Diego NTC (which no longer functions as it did) and WCC WA Conservation Corps, where I built trails and such all over WA state in 98-99.
Tamara, thank you so much for your compliments. I have zero confidence in writing, but currently getting ready to post another one to my stack along with announcement of my new websites, www.4getwar.com, and, www.trippsticks.com.
Yes, my experience on the Rez decades ago was the most pesonally rewarding of my life. I would love to share more about that with you but it would take hours, volumes. In the meantime I will enjoy subscribing to and reading your stack. Btw - I live in Moscow, Idaho.
Uh oh! Now the cat's outta the bag, my commenter personna, 'U.R.', split pesonality revealed. Oh well. That's what happens to those of us who still have one foot in the analog era, and will never be accustomed to all the mystery and buttons of this digital age.
You have a beautiful way with words! Your story touches my heart. I was 10 years old when my neighbor went off to that war. I don't know if he made it home because we moved. All wars are a tragic waste of young lives, but that particular war really stuck with me. Maybe it was the news coverage. I'm glad you survived.
Regarding 2020 I knew from the beginning something wasn't right. I had never seen "testing" done by sticking a stick way up a person's nose. I chose not to participate in any of it. I tried to warn my six siblings and my three children. They all thought I was a crazy "conspiracy theorist". Same when I warned about the EUA "vaccines". Thankfully, they are all ok....so far!
Yep, same with me - no tests, no masks, no self imprisonment, no vaxx. Begged and pleaded from the getgo with loved ones not to fall for the plandemic and the poison jabs. Ridiculed by some, and estranged from most as a result of my warnings.
I pray everyday for those that took the jabs that they will be well, especially for the children, and my grandkids who had no choice. Valerie, it is good to know we are of like mind and steadfast in our convictions - together, we will not consent to our own enslavement. Blessings to you and your family. Thank you so much for taking time to read my post and respond.
I'm so moved by this piece, James. Thank you for the "shameless plug" that brought me here! :-)
It's rare and wonderful to read the first-hand reflections of someone who's lived through such tumultuous, painful, historic times, come out the other side, and learned profound lessons. Especially someone like you, who has a singular voice and real writing chops.
Thank you for digging deep into your life to offer so many gems. This is one: "I am not ashamed. I am not sorry. I will not go quietly into my own enslavement, nor keep quiet in the face of the enslavement of those I love. I will continue my resistance, my appeals to all, to the resurrection of sanity." 💎
Thank you Mary. Maybe I shall have a chance to tell you privately how your words, your post, and now your encouragement has not only lifted my spirits, but also brings tears of gratitude rolling down my face. Yes, it is true.
Bravo! Well said. I appreciate your words and story. Amazing. God uses mere mortal men to lead other men through trying and perilous times, and it sounds like your captain was one of those. Becoming fewer and fewer and the days grow short. God bless you and yours and the journey of us all.♥
Oh wow, SadieJay!! Thank you so much for responding. Keep up the great work you do with your posts. I am blessed to be able to share thoughts, trials and tribulations with you, and others. Blessings to you and yours everyday, and in every way. We shall fight on. All glory and honor to our Creator.
Warrior1. AMEN !! The crazy thing is how so many still are blind to, and or in total denial of how badly the dark entities want us all dead. It is so good to hear you proclaim who The Captain is !
Thank you so much for taking time to read my story and comment. God Bless.
I'm surprised you guys are so antagonistic to the COVID-19 vaccine, particularly since hundreds of millions of people in the United States have been vaccinated without the side-effects you imply. But that's not the main point I want to make.
You veterans indeed merit the nation's thanks for your service. Does being a veteran reasonably confer the title of "patriot"? Yes, it usually does. But most Americans also see patriotism as a commitment to the core principles the country was founded on, like liberty, justice, equality, and the rule of law. This means valuing the rights enshrined in the Constitution, such as free speech, religious freedom, and the right to vote.
Further, integrity is also one of the foundational principles of the United States, though it might not be explicitly stated as such in the founding documents. The ideals that the United States was founded on are deeply rooted in principles that emphasize moral character, ethical behavior, and the pursuit of the common good.
From what I've seen over the past nine years, our president-elect embodies qualities that are in direct opposition to what most Americans consider as patriotism.
Good to hear from you DC. Inalienable and Sovereign are at the heart of my own personal rights. These rights don't come from human 'Authorities' nor from bureaucrats and pompous lying politicians. No matter which side of the aisle and what levels of government the numero uno prerequisite for seeking public office is that person must have an innate ability to lie. Lies ruin lives. There is no 'moral character' within the halls of government, particularly since 1969. Moral, in part, to me means do no harm and don't steal other people's stuff. No doubting the history of our government in recent decades and even going back to the distant past has proven their intent to steal whatever their corporate and banking cartel partners want any where in the world, and from its own citizens. The list of theft, racketeering and death and destruction is endless and continues to this day in many parts of the world, specifically the Middle East and Ukraine at present.
If your take away from everything I've shared in my posts is that I am a 'Patriot' I would only ask that you read again what I've written. If anything my overarching personal response to any so-called gov officials is, "Hey follow human being, thanks for your need to try and tell me how to live my life. Unfortunately you have stolen too much of my stuff, coerced and threatened me and my loved ones with the intent to control and enslave us. No mas."
As to the intentional poisoning of 80% of the U.S. population and a like % of the world's population I am very sorry for anyone who fell victim to the lies and fear mongering regarding the plandemic. I pray daily that my friends and loved ones who allowed themselves to play Russian Roulette with their health by taking the jab(s) did not receive the worst of the batches. It took about 10-12 years for the gov/military/chem companies to fess up to the harm and death they knew Agent Orange was going to do to all those millions of humans that were exposed to it. Similar examples of extreme harm that was initially covered up and denied can be found in the cases of Thalidomide, and DDT. But, eventually, as in all things the Truth of the matter could not be held back forever. Such will be the case regarding MRNA and any other genetically modifying 'therapies', but its not going to take 10 -12 years this time for the truth to come out - the astonishing and tragic results are already being revealed, proven and established by mounting scientific evidence.
In view of the governments track record of turning everything it touches into failure, shit and loss of trillions of dollars, and its insistence upon endless printing of counterfeit dollars, I am compelled to proclaim, "...Gov, make all the suggestions you want, but I no longer accept your authority, mandates, threats of harm to my person if I don't go along with your programs, and the theft of my earnings."
D.C., even though we are in disagreement on many things, I am giving you a like, for what its worth, because your responses always inspires important dialog.
I just read it and it affected me. I feel really bad that you did not remain with that first love. Evidently you found another and had a large family but you still mourn the loss of that other person. I met my husband when I was 13 and he 14. We stayed together. I would have always mourned him if it had not worked out. We have been married 58 years. I have been so blessed.
Consuelo. Congratulations !! Being with the love of your life for 58 years is such a rarity for our generation. Bravo!!! Wishing you and your's many more years of continued bliss and love.
Thank you for taking time to read my story and for your kindness and understanding of my need to publicly post my efforts to forgive myself. It really does my heart good to hear how you and yours have been so blessed to have each other.
You are a writer, writing from the heart and soul of your experience. Thank you for sharing. Currently, I am in the Yakima area, so it was interesting to read of your Vista experience there. I appreciate your perspective and encourage you to write more. I honor you for your service and life experience.
Proof positive that yes, indeed, I am split persona 'J.L.' and 'U.R.'
It cracks me up how I can be one person on my phone and another on this chrome book. I know, I know, there are cyber ways to remedy such things but I can't bother with it - I have better things to do. Like, taking time to go to your stack and finding such good stories and poems there. It has meant more to me today than you know. Your words, your poems helped pull me out of the daily regimen I've grown weary of ... waiting for the other shoe to drop and trying to figure out when it will and how. Hint: why I bother ( I don't like being blindsided ).
I would welcome any and all dialog with you anytime. Thank again for your kindness.
Oh I almost forgot - I read a reference you made to 'Americorp' - that organization grew out of VISTA, which was birthed in the War on Poverty programs of the 60's.
This makes me very happy to hear that my words uplifted another sojourner. I always hope they can inspire and reach the right folks at the right time, which I can't control. So reading this comment has given me too, some confirmation that these words are indeed important and we can touch others with them. And yes, I was involved in Americorps: NCCC which was an awesome program in 1995-96 that I was stationed at the San Diego NTC (which no longer functions as it did) and WCC WA Conservation Corps, where I built trails and such all over WA state in 98-99.
Tamara, thank you so much for your compliments. I have zero confidence in writing, but currently getting ready to post another one to my stack along with announcement of my new websites, www.4getwar.com, and, www.trippsticks.com.
Yes, my experience on the Rez decades ago was the most pesonally rewarding of my life. I would love to share more about that with you but it would take hours, volumes. In the meantime I will enjoy subscribing to and reading your stack. Btw - I live in Moscow, Idaho.
Blessings to you.
Uh oh! Now the cat's outta the bag, my commenter personna, 'U.R.', split pesonality revealed. Oh well. That's what happens to those of us who still have one foot in the analog era, and will never be accustomed to all the mystery and buttons of this digital age.
You have a beautiful way with words! Your story touches my heart. I was 10 years old when my neighbor went off to that war. I don't know if he made it home because we moved. All wars are a tragic waste of young lives, but that particular war really stuck with me. Maybe it was the news coverage. I'm glad you survived.
Regarding 2020 I knew from the beginning something wasn't right. I had never seen "testing" done by sticking a stick way up a person's nose. I chose not to participate in any of it. I tried to warn my six siblings and my three children. They all thought I was a crazy "conspiracy theorist". Same when I warned about the EUA "vaccines". Thankfully, they are all ok....so far!
Yep, same with me - no tests, no masks, no self imprisonment, no vaxx. Begged and pleaded from the getgo with loved ones not to fall for the plandemic and the poison jabs. Ridiculed by some, and estranged from most as a result of my warnings.
I pray everyday for those that took the jabs that they will be well, especially for the children, and my grandkids who had no choice. Valerie, it is good to know we are of like mind and steadfast in our convictions - together, we will not consent to our own enslavement. Blessings to you and your family. Thank you so much for taking time to read my post and respond.
I'm so moved by this piece, James. Thank you for the "shameless plug" that brought me here! :-)
It's rare and wonderful to read the first-hand reflections of someone who's lived through such tumultuous, painful, historic times, come out the other side, and learned profound lessons. Especially someone like you, who has a singular voice and real writing chops.
Thank you for digging deep into your life to offer so many gems. This is one: "I am not ashamed. I am not sorry. I will not go quietly into my own enslavement, nor keep quiet in the face of the enslavement of those I love. I will continue my resistance, my appeals to all, to the resurrection of sanity." 💎
You ARE a writer. Keep doing it, please.
Thank you Mary. Maybe I shall have a chance to tell you privately how your words, your post, and now your encouragement has not only lifted my spirits, but also brings tears of gratitude rolling down my face. Yes, it is true.
Bravo! Well said. I appreciate your words and story. Amazing. God uses mere mortal men to lead other men through trying and perilous times, and it sounds like your captain was one of those. Becoming fewer and fewer and the days grow short. God bless you and yours and the journey of us all.♥
Oh wow, SadieJay!! Thank you so much for responding. Keep up the great work you do with your posts. I am blessed to be able to share thoughts, trials and tribulations with you, and others. Blessings to you and yours everyday, and in every way. We shall fight on. All glory and honor to our Creator.
May the Lord be always with you. Thanks for the story and your thoughts. I appreciate it very much.
Thank you for your Service and for sharing your poignant story of love, survival ,defense of loved ones, and forgiveness.
I too stood fast against the onslaught to take the Bio Weapon that was created to kill and maim.
Fortunately my children who are adults, listened to the evidence I presented to them and did not take the poison.
God bless you and your family.
Our battle continues. Fortunately we dodged a bullet in this Presidential election.
God is Sovereign and in control.
Praise God… Stand for Freedom!
Warrior1. AMEN !! The crazy thing is how so many still are blind to, and or in total denial of how badly the dark entities want us all dead. It is so good to hear you proclaim who The Captain is !
Thank you so much for taking time to read my story and comment. God Bless.
I'm surprised you guys are so antagonistic to the COVID-19 vaccine, particularly since hundreds of millions of people in the United States have been vaccinated without the side-effects you imply. But that's not the main point I want to make.
You veterans indeed merit the nation's thanks for your service. Does being a veteran reasonably confer the title of "patriot"? Yes, it usually does. But most Americans also see patriotism as a commitment to the core principles the country was founded on, like liberty, justice, equality, and the rule of law. This means valuing the rights enshrined in the Constitution, such as free speech, religious freedom, and the right to vote.
Further, integrity is also one of the foundational principles of the United States, though it might not be explicitly stated as such in the founding documents. The ideals that the United States was founded on are deeply rooted in principles that emphasize moral character, ethical behavior, and the pursuit of the common good.
From what I've seen over the past nine years, our president-elect embodies qualities that are in direct opposition to what most Americans consider as patriotism.
Good to hear from you DC. Inalienable and Sovereign are at the heart of my own personal rights. These rights don't come from human 'Authorities' nor from bureaucrats and pompous lying politicians. No matter which side of the aisle and what levels of government the numero uno prerequisite for seeking public office is that person must have an innate ability to lie. Lies ruin lives. There is no 'moral character' within the halls of government, particularly since 1969. Moral, in part, to me means do no harm and don't steal other people's stuff. No doubting the history of our government in recent decades and even going back to the distant past has proven their intent to steal whatever their corporate and banking cartel partners want any where in the world, and from its own citizens. The list of theft, racketeering and death and destruction is endless and continues to this day in many parts of the world, specifically the Middle East and Ukraine at present.
If your take away from everything I've shared in my posts is that I am a 'Patriot' I would only ask that you read again what I've written. If anything my overarching personal response to any so-called gov officials is, "Hey follow human being, thanks for your need to try and tell me how to live my life. Unfortunately you have stolen too much of my stuff, coerced and threatened me and my loved ones with the intent to control and enslave us. No mas."
As to the intentional poisoning of 80% of the U.S. population and a like % of the world's population I am very sorry for anyone who fell victim to the lies and fear mongering regarding the plandemic. I pray daily that my friends and loved ones who allowed themselves to play Russian Roulette with their health by taking the jab(s) did not receive the worst of the batches. It took about 10-12 years for the gov/military/chem companies to fess up to the harm and death they knew Agent Orange was going to do to all those millions of humans that were exposed to it. Similar examples of extreme harm that was initially covered up and denied can be found in the cases of Thalidomide, and DDT. But, eventually, as in all things the Truth of the matter could not be held back forever. Such will be the case regarding MRNA and any other genetically modifying 'therapies', but its not going to take 10 -12 years this time for the truth to come out - the astonishing and tragic results are already being revealed, proven and established by mounting scientific evidence.
In view of the governments track record of turning everything it touches into failure, shit and loss of trillions of dollars, and its insistence upon endless printing of counterfeit dollars, I am compelled to proclaim, "...Gov, make all the suggestions you want, but I no longer accept your authority, mandates, threats of harm to my person if I don't go along with your programs, and the theft of my earnings."
D.C., even though we are in disagreement on many things, I am giving you a like, for what its worth, because your responses always inspires important dialog.